Monday, September 19, 2011
Video for a Day: "You" by Atmosphere
"You" by Atmosphere
This was the first song I ever heard from Atmosphere a few years ago, then I fell in love. I was lucky enough to see these guys perform at Lolla this past summer- amazing set. Seriously, so great. I want to see them again for sure.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Casual? Or...
Should I do the whole "casual dating" thing? Where I literally go on dates and "talk" to more than one guy at a time? Is this even right for me? Am I willing to try it out because a friend has done it? Will it be like I'm talking to two or three guys and chillin with them but not actually in a real relationship with them? It kind of sucks when a person tells you how much they really like you and think you're really sweet and great and list off all of the reasons they are attracted to you, but that they aren't looking for a serious relationship right now, that maybe in a year they will be ready for a serious relationship and will be ready to be your boyfriend for sure then because they really would like to be your boyfriend. All I can think is "Fuck my life" (pardon my language) because I just see a flashback of the last "fling" I had, and I hated where that went. I can't even look that other guy in the face without cringing on the inside every time. It really sucks when your friends know about the guy and are all excited for you and waiting for you to get in a relationship, and then you never want to have to break it to them that he doesn't want a relationship right now. Why is it so difficult? Why must everything be so casual? If you really like me, why can't we just be together now? Why would we tease ourselves like this? When you were drunk the other night and texted me, I should've understood then what you were trying to say, but I was tired and you were drunkingly texting me and not writing in the most complete of sentences. You said that we would talk and all.
Thanks for taking me on a date and all. I really had a nice time. I really did. I appreciate your honesty. About everything. That "fling" of a guy lead me on- you did not. I'm glad you were upfront with me at the beginning of all of this. I'm glad that you like so many things about me, but I dislike that you don't want a relationship right now. But maybe you're smart for wanting to wait. We shouldn't rush into things anyway. I mean, we truly haven't known each other super long. So maybe I get it. Maybe once we spend more time with each other, maybe your feelings will change. Maybe you'll say "Fuck it" and want to be in a relationship. Waiting is not a bad thing. It's not. But I get that you're also kind of doing this for me. You've been in relationships before- I have not. While we're not actually official, I could go out with other guys (if they should enter my life), figure out what I really want out of a relationship, figure out what I really want in a guy, just figure out all of this shit in general. This is your break from the relationship ordeal for now; you'll just keep it casual. Yeah. Let me keep my options open. I will keep my options open. But I like you. I really fucking do. It's not even like I like you for the wrong reasons either. It's all of the right reasons. It even started off right. It wasn't the whole "oooo he's cute. I wonder if he notices me? Omg, we're actually having a conversation. Omg, he thinks I'm funny. Omg, I think he likes me too. Omg, he's so cute." I wouldn't actually say "omg" that many times, but you (as in you readers, if there are any...) get what I'm saying. I can actually have legit, serious conversations with him! He likes going into detail when he's telling a story or something and then he feels bad about taking so long to tell the story, but I do the exact same thing so of course I have enough patience to hear him tell the entire story. I wish more people explained things in detail. We're in such a fast-paced society that we can't even take the time to listen to someone tell us something thoughtful in great detail- we always want the summary. There's so many genuine things to like about him. I actually think he's the first guy that I've ever had feelings for where I have many reasons to like him that are good reasons- I'm not falling for a druggie/high school dropout, a boy with an accent whose written English skills bring out my inner grammar Nazi, a boy with a pretty face who barely knew I existed, a DJ who was probably too old for me anyway, and other "cute" faces in the crowd. No, I'm not in love or anything because that's a bit too fast and weird. But I really like this guy.
Thanks for taking me on a date and all. I really had a nice time. I really did. I appreciate your honesty. About everything. That "fling" of a guy lead me on- you did not. I'm glad you were upfront with me at the beginning of all of this. I'm glad that you like so many things about me, but I dislike that you don't want a relationship right now. But maybe you're smart for wanting to wait. We shouldn't rush into things anyway. I mean, we truly haven't known each other super long. So maybe I get it. Maybe once we spend more time with each other, maybe your feelings will change. Maybe you'll say "Fuck it" and want to be in a relationship. Waiting is not a bad thing. It's not. But I get that you're also kind of doing this for me. You've been in relationships before- I have not. While we're not actually official, I could go out with other guys (if they should enter my life), figure out what I really want out of a relationship, figure out what I really want in a guy, just figure out all of this shit in general. This is your break from the relationship ordeal for now; you'll just keep it casual. Yeah. Let me keep my options open. I will keep my options open. But I like you. I really fucking do. It's not even like I like you for the wrong reasons either. It's all of the right reasons. It even started off right. It wasn't the whole "oooo he's cute. I wonder if he notices me? Omg, we're actually having a conversation. Omg, he thinks I'm funny. Omg, I think he likes me too. Omg, he's so cute." I wouldn't actually say "omg" that many times, but you (as in you readers, if there are any...) get what I'm saying. I can actually have legit, serious conversations with him! He likes going into detail when he's telling a story or something and then he feels bad about taking so long to tell the story, but I do the exact same thing so of course I have enough patience to hear him tell the entire story. I wish more people explained things in detail. We're in such a fast-paced society that we can't even take the time to listen to someone tell us something thoughtful in great detail- we always want the summary. There's so many genuine things to like about him. I actually think he's the first guy that I've ever had feelings for where I have many reasons to like him that are good reasons- I'm not falling for a druggie/high school dropout, a boy with an accent whose written English skills bring out my inner grammar Nazi, a boy with a pretty face who barely knew I existed, a DJ who was probably too old for me anyway, and other "cute" faces in the crowd. No, I'm not in love or anything because that's a bit too fast and weird. But I really like this guy.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Relationships Are Odd Business
I'm still trying to figure this whole thing out. I don't want to rush into things just because I'm pretty inexperienced. How long do people "talk" before they decide to get into an actual relationship? How many dates do you go out on, especially if you don't know the other person as well? How do you get enough courage to tell a person that you really like them, and it's not just some little crush? You know the crush- when you rarely talk to the person, and you find them quite attractive, but you hardly know anything about them or they barely know you exist. I can safely say that I've moved on from those types of crushes. Actually, I wouldn't even call what feelings I have for most guys "crushes" anymore. I have genuine feelings, ya know. I don't want to obsess over a relationship, and I hope that whatever guy ends up being my first boyfriend or fifth boyfriend or husband realizes that. I'm not trying to say that the relationship isn't important to me, but I want he and I to be able to lead our separate lives as well. I don't want to spend every waking moment with my guy or have to tell him where I am 24/7 or anything like that. I don't want to get tired of him or feel like he's being the jealous type because I went out with my friends and didn't invite him. As I've been told, I'm a pretty chill girl. I'd like to stick to that too because that's just how I am.
So, while I'm stuck in this position where there may be two guys who have feelings for me, I must make decisions. One guy has already openly admitted that he definitely likes me and feels a connection; the other guy seems like a mystery, so I cannot confirm that actually likes me and just doesn't want to be friends. I'm happy with being friends with both of these guys, but I don't want it to be awkward between the first guy and I because he admitted to liking me. It takes a ton of courage to do what he did, and I admire him for that, plus I like him too. At this point, we could just jump right into a relationship, but I don't want to rush into things and have things go badly because we didn't wait longer to make sure our feelings were true and not just illusions for the moment. I want things to work, but I don't want to get my hopes up when disappointment could be right around the corner.
As my title states, relationships are odd business indeed.
So, while I'm stuck in this position where there may be two guys who have feelings for me, I must make decisions. One guy has already openly admitted that he definitely likes me and feels a connection; the other guy seems like a mystery, so I cannot confirm that actually likes me and just doesn't want to be friends. I'm happy with being friends with both of these guys, but I don't want it to be awkward between the first guy and I because he admitted to liking me. It takes a ton of courage to do what he did, and I admire him for that, plus I like him too. At this point, we could just jump right into a relationship, but I don't want to rush into things and have things go badly because we didn't wait longer to make sure our feelings were true and not just illusions for the moment. I want things to work, but I don't want to get my hopes up when disappointment could be right around the corner.
As my title states, relationships are odd business indeed.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Music of Life's Past: Part 1 (copied from my other blog)
Recently, I’ve been listening to a lot of “older” music, except for Foster the People and some others. When I say older, I mean to say music that is either older than me, makes me feel old/young, or from artists that have been a part of my life for quite some time. I’ve been thinking how I’ve grown with some of these musicians or how I might have slightly lost some interest in them or they were pushed to the side because some newer artist caught my eye (forgive me for somewhat kicking you to the curb).
Just yesterday, Refused’s fb page posted a status asking everyone what their favorite song was. I didn’t think about it too long, but I feel that “Rather Be Dead” is probably my favorite Refused song. “New Noise” is how I got into them and is probably their most mainstream song that can be heard in movies and video games and all, but “Rather Be Dead” moves me differently and has a stronger meaning/message behind it.
For the past two nights, I’ve been listening to Incubus’ Light Grenades to help me go to sleep (don’t judge my choices of music to fall asleep to). While flipping through the album booklet, I realized that it came out in 2006- five years ago. Five years?! And they just released their latest album last week, I believe. I was in the 8th grade when Light Grenades came out, and now I’m about to be a sophomore in college. I can’t say what my truly favorite Incubus song is, but for now I’ll say “Dig”. I’d have that song on repeat for so long, I’m surprised that I didn’t somehow wear out the cd. First song that I head from these guys? Most likely “Drive”. I played that song a lot too. I remember watching the music video often as well and always staring at Brandon Boyd’s red tattoo (that I now know is of a koi fish, thanks to the internet when I was 12) because I was seriously mesmorized by its design. Another fun fact about Incubus is that I use to always confuse them with Hoobastank when I was younger; I’m guessing that I thought the lead singers looked similar and they had a similar sound. Once I finally got my glasses in 7th grade, that confusion ended because obviously Brandon Boyd is a more beautiful being. Anyway…
The other day, I was listening to Pet Shop Boys. I went from only knowing “West End Girls” as a child to owning their Discography: The Complete Singles Collection album. Now, I can’t really call myself a true, hardcore fan because I don’t own all of their albums or anything, but when I do hear one of their songs, I get pretty excited. Favorite song? “Being Boring” for sure. It’s a feel good song and makes me want to have a snazzy party with all of my friends (see the video and understand). Unless my dad is hiding any other albums of theirs besides the “West End Girls” single, this is all I own in the world of Pet Shop Boys. Hearing their music makes me wonder why I wasn’t born in the ’80s…
Lucy Pearl. ”Who is that?” you may ask. Well, they were a short-lived R&B ”supergroup”, composed of Raphael Saadiq (Tony! Toni! Toné!), Dawn Robinson (En Vogue), and Ali Shaheed Muhammad (A Tribe Called Quest). Their most popular song is “Dance Tonight”, which most people remember being played in the film Love & Basketball. They only had one album, so you can only judge them from that, but their self-titled album is one of my favorites. I seriously wish that they would’ve put out at least one more album. They had good chemistry, in my opinion. My favorite song out of their 15? “Remember The Times”. It reminds me of my youth, not necessarily saying that everything in that song is exactly reminescent of my childhood. It does make me think of going to my grandma’s house too. Why didn’t they put out another album?! There was so much quality on that one album. They even were nominated for a Grammy for their most popular song. Thank God Raphael Saadiq still makes music so I can just listen to his voice forever, not that the others don’t make music still. Raphael just has a wonderful voice period, so he could sing in any group or be solo (as he is currently) and still be fine with me. I just really like Raphael Saadiq. Anyway…
I think I’ll end this right here for now and make a part two later, for anyone who cares anyway.
Just yesterday, Refused’s fb page posted a status asking everyone what their favorite song was. I didn’t think about it too long, but I feel that “Rather Be Dead” is probably my favorite Refused song. “New Noise” is how I got into them and is probably their most mainstream song that can be heard in movies and video games and all, but “Rather Be Dead” moves me differently and has a stronger meaning/message behind it.
For the past two nights, I’ve been listening to Incubus’ Light Grenades to help me go to sleep (don’t judge my choices of music to fall asleep to). While flipping through the album booklet, I realized that it came out in 2006- five years ago. Five years?! And they just released their latest album last week, I believe. I was in the 8th grade when Light Grenades came out, and now I’m about to be a sophomore in college. I can’t say what my truly favorite Incubus song is, but for now I’ll say “Dig”. I’d have that song on repeat for so long, I’m surprised that I didn’t somehow wear out the cd. First song that I head from these guys? Most likely “Drive”. I played that song a lot too. I remember watching the music video often as well and always staring at Brandon Boyd’s red tattoo (that I now know is of a koi fish, thanks to the internet when I was 12) because I was seriously mesmorized by its design. Another fun fact about Incubus is that I use to always confuse them with Hoobastank when I was younger; I’m guessing that I thought the lead singers looked similar and they had a similar sound. Once I finally got my glasses in 7th grade, that confusion ended because obviously Brandon Boyd is a more beautiful being. Anyway…
The other day, I was listening to Pet Shop Boys. I went from only knowing “West End Girls” as a child to owning their Discography: The Complete Singles Collection album. Now, I can’t really call myself a true, hardcore fan because I don’t own all of their albums or anything, but when I do hear one of their songs, I get pretty excited. Favorite song? “Being Boring” for sure. It’s a feel good song and makes me want to have a snazzy party with all of my friends (see the video and understand). Unless my dad is hiding any other albums of theirs besides the “West End Girls” single, this is all I own in the world of Pet Shop Boys. Hearing their music makes me wonder why I wasn’t born in the ’80s…
Lucy Pearl. ”Who is that?” you may ask. Well, they were a short-lived R&B ”supergroup”, composed of Raphael Saadiq (Tony! Toni! Toné!), Dawn Robinson (En Vogue), and Ali Shaheed Muhammad (A Tribe Called Quest). Their most popular song is “Dance Tonight”, which most people remember being played in the film Love & Basketball. They only had one album, so you can only judge them from that, but their self-titled album is one of my favorites. I seriously wish that they would’ve put out at least one more album. They had good chemistry, in my opinion. My favorite song out of their 15? “Remember The Times”. It reminds me of my youth, not necessarily saying that everything in that song is exactly reminescent of my childhood. It does make me think of going to my grandma’s house too. Why didn’t they put out another album?! There was so much quality on that one album. They even were nominated for a Grammy for their most popular song. Thank God Raphael Saadiq still makes music so I can just listen to his voice forever, not that the others don’t make music still. Raphael just has a wonderful voice period, so he could sing in any group or be solo (as he is currently) and still be fine with me. I just really like Raphael Saadiq. Anyway…
I think I’ll end this right here for now and make a part two later, for anyone who cares anyway.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Video for a Day: "The City" by Patrick Wolf
"The City" by Patrick Wolf
Patrick Wolf is a man who will always be held in my heart. You have no idea.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Video for a Day: "Sunday" by Bloc Party ('tis live as well)
"Sunday" by Bloc Party
I love this. I wish I could have seen them live in the past. Maybe they'll have another tour in a year or two, just so I can see them haha.
MagCloud: Making My Magazine Dream a Reality
Earlier today while at my grandmother's house, I did a Google search on my phone for places to print magazines. MagCloud by HP came up in my results, so of course I knew it had to be legit since it's HP lol. I got so excited while reading more information and realized how easy it would be to print the magazine that I'm starting. Even if I only have one issue, it'll be even easier to just have that one print copy. The price isn't that bad either, which makes me super happy. I'm just realizing how much more doable(?) this will be. I could even just have it in PDF form, and people will have the option to download it to their computers, tablets, smartphones, whatever will allow it. I really want people to be able to hold a physical copy in their hands as well, but it'd be up to them to choose that option.
I'm thinking...maybe I'll make print copies for myself and anyone else who would like a copy, but otherwise make it a free download for the first issue. That'll give me time to receive criticism from people and suggestions and such. I'll get a feel if people think that it's of a good enough quality to pay for it. Oh yes. The possibilities are alive.
I'm thinking...maybe I'll make print copies for myself and anyone else who would like a copy, but otherwise make it a free download for the first issue. That'll give me time to receive criticism from people and suggestions and such. I'll get a feel if people think that it's of a good enough quality to pay for it. Oh yes. The possibilities are alive.
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